>if dreams were ever true

Friday, June 29, 2007

8:35 PM

YOU PEOPLE BETTER STOP CALLING ME BIMBO BEFORE I GO BOMB ALL OF YOUR HOUSES DOWN.

stupid class.
why do i have a class for?
everyday kena suan ._.
AND!
wangchen&cher-e&linyi are super assholes.
frame me! ok lor yall win lor.

nothing much this week.
except that first week of school seems really tiring.
more tiring than i remembered school to be.
&ms teo kept saying that we have 7 weeks left only.
ok luh true luh but it's really making me super nervous.
needa start mugging already.
SERIOUS MUGGING /:

i just hope that things turn out fine in the end,
like how it was like in the beginnig.

Saturday, June 23, 2007

1:27 PM

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rofl i just saw this girl (in sec2 i think)called yijia. from rvco bah.
and she was on disney channel talking about helping people, together with afew other kids luh.
and guess what she said:

"IT FEELS GOOD TO DO GOOD."

wahsai. mrs look will be so proud man.
talking about the power of brainwashing.
shakes head.

yijia, you own.

lmao.

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moral of the story: irene chu and tanszekiat are 2 people that you can NEVER DO HOMEWORK WITH.
i still dont understand - if they didnt want to do homework from the very beginning, why did they even bother to say yes when i asked them???
sigh. i guess, sometimes we humans never understand pigs' mindsets :D

im in SUPER SHIT CASE now.
going to be totally screwed by all my subject teachers when school reopens.
that is, in 2days time.

WHERE DID MY JUNE HOLIDAYS GO?!

WHERE??? D: D:

but ok luh. irene is a good girl.
since she treated me pizza :D
oops am i not supposed to say that irene? in case gim chases after you for it too (x
&the stupid tanszekiat only did (and planning to do) physics homework - FOR OBVIOUS REASONS.
if i get their physics teacher i think i can score much better for my physics though. im the kind of students who can be described as slaves lol.
so how am i going to survive jc?
when nobody cares whether i fail (except my mum luh, duh)
i think i'll just retain luh ._.

anyways. HECK.

SCHOOL IS REOPENING!!!!
OHNO!!!!!!!

im not resigned.how can i be? you're me best friend. from the very start to the very end.
i just dont know how to put this to an end.

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

10:41 PM

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happy SUPER BELATED BIRTHDAY to mr stanley yeo! :D
im so sorry man.
he's really a nice person.
since i forgot his birthday, you know ..

&im seriously in love with S.H.E's may day! :D
it's' been long since i was last so obsessed with a chinese song. i think the previous one was like, liang shan bo yu zhu li ye. that's like decades ago!
it's so so so so nice! <3 <3

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just back from malacca. followed my dad to a church leaders' retreat.
by the way, the definition of RETREAT is to slack, eat, sleep.
so im not being a pig for doing those things.

OK! YOU PEOPLE!

and it's kind of amazing, to see that everything, every organisation needs a vision.
especailly God's kingdom.

i thought alot about alot of things.
i thought that i must learn to walk away from people, from the past.
i've always been the last person, clinging onto a something that's over, and everyone else's moved on because it's the only nature thing to do,
and then i cant accept it and break down
and blame the world for changing, when changing is the only normal thing.

i guess, i've to learn that things, and people change.
and there's nothing i can do about them except to accept.

people learn to adapt to loneliness as they grow up. it's what growing up is about.
so now i know that what happened between us is not just because i've grown up.
but you too.
i've always thought that you're so strong, so secure that i neglected the twisted part of you.
and im sorry,
that the lack of my realisation hurt you.
so much.

now i understand when you said that you've had enough.
you had enough of me hurting you, did you not?

sometimes i thought that being close to someone means to throw away and let go of my pride totally.
so that nothing gets in between us.
but then i realise, that without pride comes no respect, which breaks down any kind of relationship.
whenever i think of you, everything that you've said to hurt me comes back, that reminds me how low i was in front of you, how much i was a thrash to you, how it makes me want to throw you away and pick my pride up again.

and then you come back in my dreams.
in my dream we're back in the beginning,
when everything was happy and fine. when we laughed and cried together and told stupid jokes together.
i wake up and they're all gone.
so i close my eyes to try to piece them back.
how could i wake up! how could i!

and then i understood what and why people wanted dreams to come true.

but i now wonder,
maybe it's only in my dreams,
they are true.

are you going to be one of the changes that i have to accpet too?
i dont want you to be. i dont.

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

8:52 AM

yesterday was the last day that im with my sec2 juniors as an NCO.
it's funny when i've been waiting for this day all my life, but kept wanting to make this last day a longer one.
i just kept thinking, is there more that we can do with them? is there more we can tell them? is there more that they want to say to us?
and when the dismissal command is finally given they were all 'we love NCO'07!' which kind of put a smile on my face.
though i've never really loved np all my life, it kind of tell me that my efforts, however little they are, are worthwhile.
take care, my dear sec2s!(:

ohwell, another phase of my life has ended.
which marks the start of a new one - chiong-ing for O's ._.

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you know, come to think of it, maybe i was a little harsh on them yesterday. considering that it was their last activity with us.
shirui was like "your 125 pumpings, 125 sit-ups, 250 jumping jacks killed them completely."
at that moment of course i disagreed. but now i kind of think that i did ._.
not to mention that i made them run 2.4 after that.
plus shirui made them frog jump &jo-lin made them duck walk, and then kokleong made them do pull-ups (inclined pull-ups for girls).
&angel wasnt being very angelic at all, sitting there looking at them being tortured with an evil grin.
ok, she's still more angelic than all of us (fine. especially me), but still.

i only did demo for the frog jump &ran 3rounds and my legs are aching all over now.
so im thinking maybe they're all hospitalised by now >.
usually after this kind of 'all-rounded' PT sessions, cadets will suffer stomach muscle pain (very. you cant even laugh), arm muscle pain, back pain, butt bone pain, calf muscle pain, thigh muscle pain (very. very very. you cant walk up the stairs for one week), and feet pain, if your running posture isnt right.
of course, not to mention sunburn.

so after yesterday (when the 'all-round' PT session practically doubled its usual amount), i now worry that they cant make it back from june holidays alive ._.

but afterwords are useless hor /:

plus, at the end of the day, they said they love us.

aww man(:

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i hate the following people (now):

emily lim - she wants to chop off my head for no particular reason
jolene ng - SHE ASKED ME FOR MY BIRTHDAY!! when that's supposed to be so memorised by her heart! >.
bernardlip&kewguansen - who refuse to organise social dinner and throw it at me. ok so maybe bernard is not hated anymore cos he says he's going to ask someone else to do it since my reaction is so overbearing. please luh I DONT EVEN HAVE A HANDPHONE!!!
bernardlip again - for not helping to look for wanling's present! and not appreciating my effort of doing what he's not ._.

yea people. i hate you D:
i miss irene shibin jolene emi qimin.
though 2 of them are in my 'hated' list.

and jolene, i still think you should be pink panther instead of red. cos he's more famous and therefore earns more money, to cater to your bimbotic needs :D :D

heehee.

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Sunday, June 10, 2007

7:52 PM

read irene's blog and i totally went 'awww' :D
heh. mushy irene.

&PLEASE LUH FOR GOODNESS SAKE BERNARDLIP,

TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF!!!

duno who last time always scold me for not eating breakfast hor. ok not that you're not eating breakfast, but you're FALLING APART!

i dowan you to die so soon luh ):

Thursday, June 07, 2007

8:08 PM

pirates of the caribbean is such a wow man :D :D !
just totally satisfying!

how i pity my darling 2b stuck with HUI'EN today while i had such a satisfying day.
ok that sounds abit 幸灾乐祸irene will smack me for that >.
rahlala. whatever man :D

you useless pig.
why never shoo her away yourself!
she should be SO GLAD that i wasnt there *evil grins*

and,
erm, what have i done so far this holiday? ._.
"this is a good story about us if it doesnt end." (:

Monday, June 04, 2007

7:40 PM

yea i guess im running away.
and i dont know how to get back and im tired to find a way out.

so im in the wild dark jungle,

lost.

im sorry.

Friday, June 01, 2007

9:07 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO:

1. bernardlipweixian
2. emilylam
3. tanpeishi
4. melissapang
5. wong jingjie

lol. not that peishi/melissa/jingjie get to see this but (:

it goes to show that im a nice girl :D :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEOPLE! :D