>if dreams were ever true

Sunday, February 25, 2007

7:36 PM

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erm nope im not in love with guansen. even if it may seem so. ok that's misleading :D nola! i dont like ahgongs ok :D :D

ps: sorry guansen dont be hurt! :D

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wednesday when desmon gave back emaths paper he was damn meanie cos he gave them out in order of merit, from lowest to the highest. like excuse me how mean can you get! that's absolutely hurting ok ._.
and it turned out that cheehao got a 30 out of 50 and he was all raving about it lol. and the best part is that he got lower than me! ~~muahahaha! that's your karma cheehao. laugh at me somemore luh huh! :D~~ ok i mean, poor guy. he's usually very good in maths luh duno what happened to him >.
&i didnt have friends again cos fongyeeho didnt come to school ._.

thursday was nothing much. just that the whole class went for learning journey - according to zhiler, to see bangalas dancing xD except for me. (and fongyeeho, cos she didnt come to school again ._.) cos half way through the day mrlim popped his head in and asked me to join a duno what humanities quiz again. and later i realised he split our perfect team (me hongjie kevin) and put me and kevin with kokleong and hongjie with some other people. well.
oh and. i didnt have friends again cos, yea, fongyeeho didnt come to school. ok this's getting unhealthy zz.
and wangyan asked me whether i like JUNHAO ._.
ohmytian luh can why would she think that i like JUNHAO! o.O

saturday went to gel's house for mahjong(:
attendance was quite zz at first cos only got me fong gim, and gel of course. later fong left for church and more pple came. that fongyeeho insisted that we will watch 'kill bill' at first cos she said it would be nice &it's M18 and it's about "killing alot of pple then it's very nice". damn saddist right. that's directly quoted from her ok. but i duno why it's nice luh. first of all the quality of the vcd is zz. then the starting of the movie there's this weird-looking woman who's driving and talking really really freakily. serious ok. like,"&now im going to kill bill." only she said it like,"&now im going to killlll billlll" and fong said that's nice?! o.O then we were watching like for half an hour already, they still havent start killing people. only everyone was talking super freakily like the 'killlll billlll' woman and gel was like,"very boring leh, why still haven kill pple yet?" lol. my point is, it's really a damn lousy movie. i think it shouldnt be M18. it should be freakily rated. that's more appropriate :D
ok enough kill bill. later when fong left we stopped the dumb movie and watched haunted mansion instead. then xinan wangchen lixian chiahong cheehao also came. and there's this part where all the skeletons came to live and it's super scary luh and i was screaming behind the cushion and xinan&wangchen were super amused by me -.- thanks luh huh.
liktak came with the mahjong (erm yea. gel actually organised mahjong party when she didnt have mahjong at home lol) and we started playing. he brought super small mahjong also luh they're super cute :D the only flaw is that it's very easily lost once it drops under the sofa or something.
then chiahong and xinan were damn gaoxiao. when me&wangchen came to the mini mahjong table from the big mahjong table (to make way for the gamblers) i asked "can yall hu2 without tai2" (this's for those who knows how to play mahjong) cos since we're not playing with money there's actually no need to have tai2. only to make it more fun. then noone wants to reply me. xinan&chiahong just went on to arrange their mahjong tiles -.- then i was like, "erm, can yall hu2 without tai2?" (more pekcek tone) still, noone cares about me. then i stared at wangchen with the whats-wrong-with-them look and went to smack chiahong (he went ouch) and said, "CAN YALL HU2 WITHOUT TAI2?!" and he stared at me blankly and said, "what's a tai2?" -.- !
very cute right, my classmates.
at night fong came to my house for dinner and i cooked noodles for her :D no worries she didnt die &will survive and come to school tmr to tell you that im a good cook :D :D

&we took a picture of my lamb, which looked like guansen because of it's falling specs hahaha. it's a guansen trademark to have specs that's slipping off the nose. though he wears contacts now. ok here it is:

doesnt it look like guansen? :D :D

maybe im wrong to think this way, but i see it as a betrayal. that's why i dont know how to face it, dont know how to talk to you, dont know what to do. maybe i was wrong from the very start. why must you hurt her this way? intentional or unintentional. and why, of all people, must it be her? yes i cannot forgive because i think you've forgotten too fast. that is, if you really forgot. and maybe our concept of history and present is very different. your history is obviously still present to me. but if not, then you're making me think very lowly of you. either way it does no good. they both show me that i've seen you wrong, not that it matters to you how do i look at you. and maybe i was never a friend of yours from the very start, till the very end. &that is something that is saddest to say. now it doesnt matter anymore. only that i will never let you hurt her. or her, even. you better love her like you should and you must.
it's just that i've never thought that you'll be such a disappointment.