Sunday, February 25, 2007
7:36 PM
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erm nope im not in love with guansen. even if it may seem so. ok that's misleading :D nola! i dont like ahgongs ok :D :D
ps: sorry guansen dont be hurt! :D
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wednesday when desmon gave back emaths paper he was damn meanie cos he gave them out in order of merit, from lowest to the highest. like excuse me how mean can you get! that's absolutely hurting ok ._.
and it turned out that cheehao got a 30 out of 50 and he was all raving about it lol. and the best part is that he got lower than me! muahahaha! that's your karma cheehao. laugh at me somemore luh huh! :D ok i mean, poor guy. he's usually very good in maths luh duno what happened to him >.
&i didnt have friends again cos fongyeeho didnt come to school ._.
thursday was nothing much. just that the whole class went for learning journey - according to zhiler, to see bangalas dancing xD except for me. (and fongyeeho, cos she didnt come to school again ._.) cos half way through the day mrlim popped his head in and asked me to join a duno what humanities quiz again. and later i realised he split our perfect team (me hongjie kevin) and put me and kevin with kokleong and hongjie with some other people. well.
oh and. i didnt have friends again cos, yea, fongyeeho didnt come to school. ok this's getting unhealthy zz.
and wangyan asked me whether i like JUNHAO ._.
ohmytian luh can why would she think that i like JUNHAO! o.O
saturday went to gel's house for mahjong(:
attendance was quite zz at first cos only got me fong gim, and gel of course. later fong left for church and more pple came. that fongyeeho insisted that we will watch 'kill bill' at first cos she said it would be nice &it's M18 and it's about "killing alot of pple then it's very nice". damn saddist right. that's directly quoted from her ok. but i duno why it's nice luh. first of all the quality of the vcd is zz. then the starting of the movie there's this weird-looking woman who's driving and talking really really freakily. serious ok. like,"&now im going to kill bill." only she said it like,"&now im going to killlll billlll" and fong said that's nice?! o.O then we were watching like for half an hour already, they still havent start killing people. only everyone was talking super freakily like the 'killlll billlll' woman and gel was like,"very boring leh, why still haven kill pple yet?" lol. my point is, it's really a damn lousy movie. i think it shouldnt be M18. it should be freakily rated. that's more appropriate :D
ok enough kill bill. later when fong left we stopped the dumb movie and watched haunted mansion instead. then xinan wangchen lixian chiahong cheehao also came. and there's this part where all the skeletons came to live and it's super scary luh and i was screaming behind the cushion and xinan&wangchen were super amused by me -.- thanks luh huh.
liktak came with the mahjong (erm yea. gel actually organised mahjong party when she didnt have mahjong at home lol) and we started playing. he brought super small mahjong also luh they're super cute :D the only flaw is that it's very easily lost once it drops under the sofa or something.
then chiahong and xinan were damn gaoxiao. when me&wangchen came to the mini mahjong table from the big mahjong table (to make way for the gamblers) i asked "can yall hu2 without tai2" (this's for those who knows how to play mahjong) cos since we're not playing with money there's actually no need to have tai2. only to make it more fun. then noone wants to reply me. xinan&chiahong just went on to arrange their mahjong tiles -.- then i was like, "erm, can yall hu2 without tai2?" (more pekcek tone) still, noone cares about me. then i stared at wangchen with the whats-wrong-with-them look and went to smack chiahong (he went ouch) and said, "CAN YALL HU2 WITHOUT TAI2?!" and he stared at me blankly and said, "what's a tai2?" -.- !
very cute right, my classmates.
at night fong came to my house for dinner and i cooked noodles for her :D no worries she didnt die &will survive and come to school tmr to tell you that im a good cook :D :D
&we took a picture of my lamb, which looked like guansen because of it's falling specs hahaha. it's a guansen trademark to have specs that's slipping off the nose. though he wears contacts now. ok here it is:
doesnt it look like guansen? :D :D
maybe im wrong to think this way, but i see it as a betrayal. that's why i dont know how to face it, dont know how to talk to you, dont know what to do. maybe i was wrong from the very start. why must you hurt her this way? intentional or unintentional. and why, of all people, must it be her? yes i cannot forgive because i think you've forgotten too fast. that is, if you really forgot. and maybe our concept of history and present is very different. your history is obviously still present to me. but if not, then you're making me think very lowly of you. either way it does no good. they both show me that i've seen you wrong, not that it matters to you how do i look at you. and maybe i was never a friend of yours from the very start, till the very end. &that is something that is saddest to say. now it doesnt matter anymore. only that i will never let you hurt her. or her, even. you better love her like you should and you must.
it's just that i've never thought that you'll be such a disappointment.
Monday, February 19, 2007
9:04 PM
my new year mood was all destroyed last night when i sat on the sofa and literally stoned for 5hours. &cried for half an hour after that. i know it's bad to cry on new year but i just felt like crying ):
that's why im now at home, all alone and stoning again. okla, not as bad as yesterday cos now i have computer.
did i mention that my mouse is screwed? the right click wont work. now i cant download songs. thanks uh mouse. you're the mouse of the year.
and my mp3 ran out of batt AGAIN. for the eighth-millionth time. it's not like i cant listen to mp3 cos i dont have one you know, but I DONT HAVE BATT. grr.
and the stupid blogger is screwed as usual. you still have to press on my archives to read the latest entry(s).
sorry. it's newyear but all i want to do is to scream at someone/something.
and there's noone to watch jackneo's movie with me D: D: D:
because thanks to my karmas from my wrongdoings in my previous life (if i have one) or something, all my friends are zhongseqingyou. yes it's friends not friend BERNARDLIP. and i want to kill you because my one day never came. roar. i really really have tonnes of things to complain can D:
life sucks ):
Sunday, February 18, 2007
1:14 PM
happy new year! :D
i dont know why but i feel more of in a new year's mood when it's chinese new year than 1st of january. ok maybe on 1st of january i feel more of in a birthday mood xD
saturday morning my mum dragged me out of bed at 10am to do SPRING CLEANING. until 3plus in the afternoon luh can! i was like dying, and after bathing just as i was about to go to sleep, some pig sms me and tell me that she just woke up.
thanks ._.
but it's really a nice feeling to huddle in front of the tv with your family and dance around the living room table when it's 12am :D
love my spastic family(:
my pastor was damn cute today. he was like "i dont know why, christians always find it unacceptable to say gongxifacai. why?! they feel that it's good enough for christians to feel happy, but not prosperous. and they stare at me like im some alien when i say gongxifacai to them, giving me a face that says 'ohmygoodness pastor how can you say that!' but it's ok for christians to be rich. in fact the Lord blessed us with riches and prosperity. it's only how we handle it that matters. therefore it's perfectly alright to say gongxifacai."
lol isn't he very cute :D make such a big fuss over gongxifacai xD
therefore, im going to tell everyone gongxifacai this year. ahaha :D :D
AND. though it's chinese new year,
GAMBLING IS STILL WRONG.
you know who this is for, calvinchia >.
im just so very glad that guansen has realised it. only i doubt that he will not gamble this cny /:
&you. i miss you alot alot ):
we should go out sometime soon.
really soon(:
Friday, February 16, 2007
9:21 PM
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just realised that everyone's talking about valentine's day.
&having valentine's blues.
why uh? im like very totally happy with myself being single leh :D
i think if im attached i'll be super stressed on valentine's.
hope that i'll stay single forever :D
am i weird? ._.
&btw when we asked one of our primary school friends (who's in acsi) whether they exchange vday presents in boys school, he totally gave us the dont-be-ridiculous look and went "NOOOOO!"
lol. what's there to be shy about? xD
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screwed bio&amaths D:
what to do. didn't expect myself to be able to learn when i was so bloody tired on wednesday night that i was seeing double images ._.
hell to common tests.
thursday's rehearsal was, erm, rather screwed.
social is getting more and more worrying.
i dont know what will happen if they take over.
who will take the initiative to do things? i dont even see the enthusiasm in the exco. and he calls himself social exco. if it goes on like this one day mrs look/tanhuizhen will decide that social is really useless and just disemble our com or something. it's not impossible.
they seriously need to buck up. i dont know how to talk to them. certain things fong cannot tell them, and it'll be even more inappropriate for me to tell them. &the seniors are always so busy. anyway we cannot expect them to keep coming back also. they've got their own jc life to handle, which is hetic enough for them. i am already very very thankful that bernard takes the time and comes down, looks at their rehearsals, and comments.
but there's only so much that we can do.
if they dont want it, no one can force anything upon them. no one.
social. please buck up. for your own goodness sake.
went shopping with fong ivan stanley after rehearsal. well not exactly shopping, just rushing around and popping by as many shops as we can cos by the time the rehearsal ended it was already 7plus. &i've to rush home before 10. sorry guys ): well but at least i bought another pair of hoops :D
today's concert was rather good, looking at the standard of their rehearsals yesterday. i mean, though lion dance was abit lag time at certain moments, but CO improved alot. they finally managed to hit the highest note which they'd not been able to hit for the past rehearsals. wushu and cl's skit were fabulous. i really think so. i think they're among the few interesting performances put up by wushu&cl. in comparison the teachers' item was quite boring. ok la at first when they went up everyone was cheering and screaming, but very few people understood what they sang la, plus they just stood there and bearly half of them opened their mouth, after a while i was falling asleep. but mrlim can sing very well! :D he's like super bilingual! :D
the only major flaw that i saw was the emcees. not trying to pick on anyone here, but they're seriously CMI. most of the time they're self-highing/making comments that sound super sarcastic/saying the wrong things at the wrong time/anti-climax/move aimlessly about the stage/dont know how to promote the atmosphere/couldnt coordinate with each other/monotonous. johnathan actually went down the stage when he was asking for volunteers from the year3s. like hello? you're the emcee! whatever happens you have to stand on the stage! and when the old folks came in peien just suddenly totally ignored johnathan and went to introduce them. im not saying that you cannot introduce them la. but find an appropriate time to do that can! he was like saying something halfway and you just totally ignore him like that, the audience will go like "huh what's happening?" like after the whole entire introduction of the performance then introduce them luh. the most important quality of an emcee is to know how to react to sudden changes during the performance isn't it? i think we should train more emcees. rv's going to be a 6-year school&for now our emcees really cannot make it. you cannot keep using people like jiamin jiamin jiamin right. after a while it gets boring!
enough rantings about the emcees. social did a good job today for the curtains(: good job social! :D it's not perfect yet, but i can see that they improved &this time is the best since they ever started doing backstage duties(:
&fong you did a fabulous job ok(:
but later something unplesant happened&social lunch didnt turn out as happy as it's supposed to be. but nvm luh it's over. what's important is that you're all ok now(:
and you. if there's anything you're troubling over must tell me ok dont keep to yourself leh /: i know you get your mood swings for a reason. like calvin said, what are friends for?(:
social went to lunch together at vivo &walked around until 2plus. then headed to jurong point where guansen bought his brother&yvonne's presents. (and not choonyen's. ohhor guansen. you're in deep trouble :D) and i bought kiat's valentine's day present too - finally. before he doesnt friend me ._.
went back to meet primary school friends&ate dinner with them(:
it's been a long long time since i last went out with them.
i think got 3years at least luh ._.
therefore im a good girl today &didnt pangseh them!(:
super tired now. going to sleep.
happy chinese new year people! :D :D
but you. i thought i knew you.
Monday, February 12, 2007
9:59 PM
ok this post is dedicated to bernardlipweixian for his noble contributions of ..
teaching me physics >.
okla i admit that teaching me things is not an easy task because i'll keep 'huh come again' and 'dont understand' and giving blank looks and not pay attention xD
and scream at the sight of gigantic green insects >.
sorry luh bernard :D
and he had to teach me the same topic 3times before i understood, say, 70% of it? yeala im a horrible science student ._.
but's it's not my fault! it's just not in the genes ok! my mum suck at sciences too!
HEH BUT I PASSED MY CT WITH A 57 OK :D :D :D
i am so proud of him my tutor myself! :D
especially after i've messed up afew of the concepts and made quite a bit of unforgivable mistakes here and there. i mean, comon i didnt even go and memorise ohm's law ._.
but nvm the point is that i passed! :D :D
with this i shall aim for my dear dear A1 for O's :D
aye you're not permited to laugh. if you're laughing now better dont come and tell me that you laughed.
i must change the stupid habit of not doing anything during weekends it's really really bad. and i'll have a hard time catching up on mondays.
ok time to mug again.
jiayou for BIO! :D
Saturday, February 10, 2007
7:55 PM
i worry for social. alot alot alot.
seeing the juniors not knowing/not taking the initiative to do anything without the supervision of fongyee/other seniors kind of scares me. i mean, when i was back in sec2/3, although i do stare helplessly at my seniors sometimes, i dont do that all the time. it's really bad luh. like i said today, what if, just if, on some big event and both fongyee&qinhui are not there? i think they'll just panick and dont know what to do. and maybe get someone like ivan/jingjie to take over /:
ok maybe im thinking too much again.
i just dont see the sense of ownership in them. they're always waiting for somebody else to do something, say something. that's why i really like the way chikan shares his opinions. whether they are constructive is not the point. the point is that he takes the initiative to say something.
hai i really worry for them luh. i mean, yes, they do seem to mix well and talk to each other and stuff, and i also know that they've made some good friends in social. but that's not all what social is about. we teach them to organise events. we teach them to share their opinions and take initiatives to do thing. we teach them to think. we teach them to become leaders.
i really hope to see some sparks in social. and i believe in them. jiayou social! you can make it!(:
anyway today's rehearsal was alright luh. tanhuizhen was cranky nevertheless. cos me&ber were there and talk talk talk. and didnt 'protect fongyee's authority'. she was like ,"yall have to let her talk!" then she chased us away and she herself went to talk to them -.- i thought fongyee's supposed to do the talking?
whatever man. old&unmarried women are like that.
and bernardlip was especially enthu today. it's so not yourself can bernard! he was at the backstage and nagging&murmuring at everything zz! im not even exaggerating! when i say everything, it's literally everything. &i was just standing there shaking my head pitying the juniors who are listening to him. and feel fortunate for those on the other side that they dont have to listen to him xD
ok la but what he said was mostly right. (except for the his-hair-is-so-ugly part. that's supposed to be part of the skit you picky oldman!) &they need someone to nag them luh.
&of course he didnt waste the chance to bully me. as usual ._.
hai im just so tired recently. i dont know why. &now im feeling all confused&guilty&angry at myself. shall not elaborate /:
blogger is screwed again. the post's like not showing luh&you've to press on the archives to see it. what kind of service website is this?! someone please sue it when you're free. i'll sponsor your court fees.
Friday, February 09, 2007
9:06 PM
i am really really happy for fong jo yitong weishuen val kaimin patrice(:
did i miss anyone out? forgive me if i did. but yea i was super worried for them ESPECIALLY FONG AND JO. i know these two will cry until like shit if they didnt get their A1s >.
but im really really happy that they got it :D :D
&jolene ng that stupid girl make me cry for nothing! hug me and cry then made me cry too. only after i cried then i went to think why was i crying when both me and her got A1? >.
ok not the point. the point is that im really really happy for all those who got A1s, and those contented with their results(:
and was sad for shibin kiat emi gim IVAN stanley hongjie celine cheehao sharry, all those who didnt get it. yes ivan you see your big name down here. that's your important significance ok(:
i really dont know how to comfort them and i guess it takes only themselves to get over it. until they decide to let it go themselves. just want to say that cheer up, it's not the end, there're still alot more subjects that you can work on to get your six(:
&of course the J1s got back their results today too.
super happy for calvin!(: i think he really did very very well la :D
and of course guansen too :D i promise that i'll think of a good anweijiang to cheer you up for your english(: but 7 is damn good already lo >.
and of course, eileen, weiguo, and bernard too! really happy that you can go nj and kick your beloved soccer ball now xD ok you know what i mean :D
and of course choonyen and wanling, whom i think can stay in their jcs no prob right?(:
also a million congrats to kokhao for being the top scorer! :D so proud of my primary school senior :D
but for those who didnt get what was expected, just hope you'll cheer up yea(:
for eric who's a little disappointed, i think still can appeal in de la dont worry!(: and actually nj's really good too right :D
and also special cheerios to munkit, alex, melvin and zaviar. though i dont really know melvin&zaviar, but yea, really hope that you can go on cheerfully &do well no matter where you'll be going to(:
just hope that i didnt forget anyone. but really, no matter what our results are, i guess what's done's already done so there's no point depressing over it. get on and march forward with a cheerful smile :D i know it's cliche to say this but i really think that tomorrow's always going to be better(:
did i mention that im the japalang-saikang-baokaliao-rep of my class now? >.
ok, actually im supposed to be the head of subject reps, who doesnt have a specific job scope. therefore anything rojak i'll have to do -.-
and the worst part is that I VOLUNTEERED MYSELF INTO IT. gel now laughs whenever she talks about it(or rather, when i complain about it) that i dig a hole and jump into it myself -.- thanks luh huh gel. I DIDNT EVEN KNOW THAT THE HEAD OF SUBJECT REPS IS EVEN IN THE CLASS COM CAN.
but i also volunteeringly became my class's air-con operator :D
and because of the fixing of the air-con by the air-con man my noble and selfless contribution, our air-con is now working damn well :D in fact, too well that it's a little bad now xD anyway, the point im trying to make here is that, i rock :D
after watching the movie on hitler youth that day i was so traumatized. it's like seeing people trained to lose their humanility. "man make history. we make man." but the actual fact is, they made beasts.
feel obliged to mention CHER-E in this entry xD cos he was doing so much free advertising for me on his own blog :D :D which i agree of course. and i know you agree too xD right cher-e? :D heh ok la. glad to bring you the good news(:
im obsessed with 'liang shan bo yu zhu li ye'! :D :D
Saturday, February 03, 2007
7:57 PM
today was an eventful day(:
in the morning there was np meeting.
i actually didnt pon ok :D
to discuss the abolishment of corporal punishment /:
well i still disagree that we should abolish luh but what to do.
since we're all supposed to be convinced that they should be abolished after today then fine lo. as if there's any other choice.
plus we cant show it in front of the cadets that we're unhappy with the policy- which will present an ununited front -.-
i can only say that the new generation are a bunch of spoilt brats. /:
now some good news:
RVNP IS A GOLD UNIT NOW :D :D :D
okla i've never expected myself to be so happy over np stuff but somehow i just am :D
im so proud of rvnp :D
and of course credits must be given to eric&their batch of ncos.
nevertheless we must maintain it this way and NEVER LOSE IT AGAIN(:
ok now about the stupid fongyeeho >.
scared me to death luh can!
eye pain because of contact lens eye drop then dowan to see doctor, and this morning became worse.
then at 10am sms me and say that 'i've to go to the hospital for emergency treatment.' wahlao then i was so scared luh can!
i am EXTREMELY EXTREMELY EXTREMELY scared of this kind of things ok! like i said before i've got phobia of accidents and i'll go and think and think and start to imagine things. i actually went to imagine her going blind (*touch wood-) then going for operation and lying on the hospital bed with one eye bandaged!
the more i think the more anxious i got. until i cried /:
and left np meeting early to rush out of school and called her then she told me NOT TO WORRY.
HOW TO NOT TO WORRY YOU TELL ME?!
now still can tell me you're going to use computer and spoil your eye somemore huh?! 3years no contacts for you is the right decision. in my opinion you shouldnt wear contacts ever again /:
after np meeting went to jj love feista(:
supposed to meet guansen at 1pm.
then i didnt alight the bus at the right stop and got scolded by the bus uncle D:
comon lo i overshot my stop already so kelian liao he still scold me ):
say what he signal me to alight but i didnt hear cos i was listening to my mp3 /:
sorry lo D:
then took bus back, and overshot AGAIN zz .
luckily it was only one stop luh so i walked back. and guansen and janice who reached long ago were super pekchek. sorry >.
then we walked around in the super crowded school lol.
till ber and kiat also came. basically we were eating and eating and eating luh :D
i must say that jj people did a fantastic job organising the event especially the food part :D the candy floss was yummy delicious(:
walked around and spotted more familiar faces. ohyes we discovered NEW SCANDALS TOO :D _____and_____ are together! :D :D :D come and ask me if you want to know. then promise to give me chocolate on valentine's then maybe i'll consider telling you xp
anyway, as i was saying, more familiar faces. jiateng jiahui wanleng junhao(unfortunately) xinan jiawenWONGWEEBOON mrbryantan tons-of-people-in-rv-shirts and of course alex wanyi boon, who were running their respective booths doing spastic things. like wanyi banging a weird machine and making a plastic frog jump into a pail of water. he was very proud of the fact that he could make the frog jump into the pail everytime luh but duno why that's something worth being proud of /: yes that's their game -.- he actually offered to let us play for free luh but erm, i didnt. xD
then kiat and jan went to spend 6bucks each to go into a gigantic circle and spin themselves around /: ok that sounds wrong. it's actually some kind of ride luh. like one of those things in escape theme park. but i was scared to up and ber said he would go giddy and guansen said he would puke lol. so they went on their own :D
after walking around the games booth we went back to the canteen and realised that the things all became half price or below rofl. everyone was madly shouting to the crowd to buy their currypuffs/chickenwings/jellys/marshmellows lol.
so then after we've completed the mission of spending all our coupons(by eating somemore food-actually we just bought whatever we saw cos the students selling them were like so desperate to get us to buy lol), 60bucks shared among 5people -thanks to yitong and jolene's donation :D feeding pathetic poks like guansenkew and bernardlip. since ber gave his ticket to his NEW AFFAIR xp ok shh that's supposed to be kept secret :D
then we went to je to play pool(:
jan was spasticly exclaiming that she's 16 now -until the staff at the counter watched her with alot of suspicion and closely matched her face with the picture on her ezlink and checked her birthday super carefully, obviously disbelieving that someone of 16years of age would behave like how she did :D hai, what to do when your friends are like that? :p
and bernard went to abuse me D:
he used his cue to smack my stomach and shoulder and back and arms and put chalk on me make me blue ): and shake head whenever i hit the white ball >.
so i revenged a little by making sure his pimples turn blue too :D and smacked him back (manually, without the cue) a few times. only afew ok!
but the point is that he bullys people D:
next time who want to marry you lidat uh bernardlip?
then guansen went off for his STJ and me&ber played against jan&kiat and we won :D because i am pro :D :D :D really. i swear. :D
went home with jan(: she abandoned kiat to eat on his own so lonely and sad! and ber happily went for his training which was supposed to start at 630pm, only that when we left je it was already 635pm lol.
today was a happy day(:
it's been so long since i last went out with social,
and as usual enjoyed their company so much. the kind of company only social can offer :D
i love jan kiat guan ber :D
love my social(:
Friday, February 02, 2007
9:25 PM
i am like so proud to say that i've been a hardworking girl :D
seriously! i've been faithfully handing in homework- never drag, never copy- hand in on time you know! okla except for holiday homework luh but that's not counted cos it's LAST YEAR.
therefore i can declare that i've successfully turned myself into a geek.
call me xiaoxi the geek please :D
my desk partner cheehao (not lihui, thank god.) is a lame shit and he bullys me although everyone thinks he's so nice cos he pretends to be! then say I BULLY HIM SOMEMORE ):
my whole class bullys me ):
when it's not friday noone's screaming at the person-on-duty to keep the OHP. then on friday suddenly EVERYBODY remembers to remind the person-on-duty (namely, me.) to keep the OHP by screaming at her /:
so mean D:
&now's even better cos cheehao is the AVA REP. then very good liao lo. today he was nagging at me to keep the OHP the WHOLE DAY >.
&they dont let me sleep during chem lesson D:
junhao asked cheehao to hit my head with the basketball AND HE REALLY WENT TO PUT THE BBALL ON MY HEAD! D: D:
so nice lo. im going to issue you the letter of disown again seahjunhao.
&i realise that i have VERY BAD pms at the time of the month. so if i come into the class and dont behave the way i do usually, it means im pms-y. and it's recommended that you dont talk to me for the time being.
today wanling and bernard came back(:
bernard was qianda. but then again, since when is he not xD
so me kiat ber wanling were sitting around the table and happily gossiping updating each other on our lives :D :D and we abandoned our cca :p
now for choonyen: dont be so stressed ok go easy on yourself&take care!(:
