when i was little i thought i was a fish. it's like looking at everything through a tank of bubbles and blue water. blue water, not clear water. now i want it kept that way.
if left brain's in charge of the language and right brain's in charge of logic, i rather i have neither.
sometimes being 'happy' is the only way to behave. i hate people keep asking me, "are u okie? are u okie?" im not, and i want u to fuck off. stop telling me 'why are ur entries sounding so depressed? be the happy and bubbly xiaoxi that i know okie" and followed by a fugly smiley face. if u think im the 'happy and bubbly xiaoxi', you DON'T know me. nobody is bubbly nowadays. children stop being bubbly once they start going to kindergardens. my sister, she's primary five. she's bubble, yes, literally, but not bubbly. people give you a smile for a reason. the whole world's got a whole bunch of reasons to show a face but they dont. what's the point? you show a face and then what? to show that you're high on top there above everybody and that noone understands your problems &they're all just a bunch of childish people whom you only want when you need a pinch of laugh? they need to grow up? and when they make a comment, a sugguestion, you say it in ur heart 'what do you know [rool eyes]' and just laugh and make a stupid comment on it. you need to learn that when they try to make you smile, they're really simply being nice. why the hell should they make YOU smile? who do you think you are? take them seriously before they're gone. and that's when you'll feel that something's gone missing in your life.
grow up before you fall too hard.
books aren't good things. they make you depressed.
im really beyond hope that i dont even know how to help myself. dont put any confidence in me, im going to fail you.
if your motivation to do something is based on something/someone, you're going to lose it sooner or later.
i find no point in looking back. my journal is just something that i write my random thoughts, not something to record my life. i can hate elephate today and love zebras tomorrow, it's not going to help me in any way 20years down the road.
since looking ahead &solving the current problem is so important, why isn't everyone doing it? i admit, i myself cant help but thinking back sometimes.
being blunt is mean? well it's just to put an idea across, in a simple way that people understand quickly. it's easier to say that 'he's fat' then to say 'oh you know that guy, he's 50cm shorter than irene but four times her weight. how i love his chuby face it's round like an apple appears like you can take a bite!' doesnt it save you alot of trouble inferring? since not everyone's very good at that.
if by lunch time you sms me and i dont reply in 2hours time, it means I DO NOT WANT TO TALK TO YOU ANYMORE. and you can be clever enough to msg me AGAIN 2hours later and ask 'you haven finish eating lunch arh?' that's just some lame reason to get you off my back la for goodness sake. i can sms and eat at the same time perfectly, for your information.
buck up. show me where to start.
i dont't know maybe im just in a bad mood.
sorry if im mean to you these days. i'll try not to.
