see! say me guailan again! i where got guailan?! stupid guy rah!

but their presents are really nice la it's very very sincere and everything (: just imagining people like bernard and guansen sewing! :D

isn't that nice? <3

i think they even 'printed' the box themselves!

and the letters they wrote to us (:

even choonyen our 'da mang ren VP' stuffed sweets into the boxes last-minute :D

and of course a big hug to yanlin who gave this to me. love ya loads too (:

later we went to eat soelgarden at bugis, which is damn ex cos it's the eve of public holiday then the seniors offered to pay themselves and we didnt get to treat them ):
but anyway the dinner was really really fun together with bernard guansen wanling choonyen fongyee szekiat janice amanda and shinzu, like it is always like when we're together as socialists (:
i guess the highlight of it was when choonyen stuffed fed a piece of watermelon into guansen's mouth
and me and bernard competing who can eat the biggest mouthfull of ice-cream. well, he won la obviously, but he was like, lol. fongyee has a video record of that :D

then we set off to esplanade to watch fireworks, and it was really really superb. the fireworks i mean. there're actually star shaped sparks! so nice! didn't know that out technology so good already :P according to guansen, that was the longest firework he'd watched cos he watches it every year. lol.
but one bad thing is, there were LOADS AND LOADS of people at the esplanade. so we were really squashed :D
then we found a place and sat down, talked about our secrets, it's like the good old times when we just sit around and tell each other everything cos there is so much trust and bond and love and.. kaypoh-ness :D hehe nola. it was a really really nice session (: though it's not like what i've expected it to be like -the crying session [and i brought so much tissue la huh] but it's the social feeling that revolved around us, that kind of atmosphere.

and i wish it would last forever (:

remembering the first day i stepped into social, there was so much fun, laughter and unity that i was simply amazed, thinking how very lucky i was, to be in social, with them. that was when we were junhong, mingming, cat, sheaufong, yvonne, bernard, choonyen, wanling, guansen, charlene, me, szekiat, fongyee, wanleng and dorcas. i remember how i was thinking that bernard is kaobei, choonyen is fierce, guansen is nice, cat and mingming are funny; and how they told me that i am quiet and nice and must express myself more [which they truly, truly regretted saying. and bernard ask me to pass the postcard back to him to burn :D]. i remember how noob we were, couldn't even pull curtains properly and when the seniors guided us to plan the first teachers' day celebration we could only stare in amazement.
i remember how we cried during the thrashout, how junhong's tears touched me, fongyee and i cried with him and we understood every meaning in that tear - no matter whatever the outcome, the fact is that we did all those because deep in our hearts, we all love social. that, was the first time i realise that i was so in love with social, the group of strangers whom we used to be, but will never be.
when wanleng was out i cried. it's like part of my heart was taken away. it was like, weeping and hurting to remove one piece from that perfect picture. later she became stronger, and it was only recently when we had our agm this year, that i realise that she's never really been out, or away. it's like, deep in her heart she included herself, and we included her. it was like magic who tied us together, never apart.

and then we were bernard, guansen, wanling, yujia, jiahui, fongyee, me, szekiat, janice, amanda, sweeying, kaylene, qinhui, shinzu, shermian and luohui. choonyen promoted to events VP, charlene to PB exco.
i remember how i was happy for choonyen and charlene, but again wishing that they didn't have to leave. and how hopeful when i looked at our new juniors, thinking that maybe it wasn't going to be that bad after all.
and i remember this period of time when we were so apart. the seniors were still feeling lost without junhong and bunch, we feeling abandoned, promising each other that when it's out turn, we'll never be like that, how everyone weren't commited, keeping quiet during every meeting.
i remember teachers' day, be yourself day, social chalet, SC chalet, chinese new year, school warming.
i remember how in the end, we stayed strong, tired to survive.

and then it was the 28th student coucil list.
i am out.

i guess it took me quite a while to react, because it came down so hard, so real, so cruel.
just when i was about to raise my head and make a difference.
just when i was.

but hey,
people, the legacy of social continues.
you must let it continue like how the rest of us had.
the only thing that made me relife, is that there were people who felt upset, angry for me and wanted me to stay. i cried when i read 'you will never be replaced.'
it was all worth while.

and now, when everything's going to come to a final stop, all i want to do is to thank everyone here,
for accepting me, teaching me, guiding me, caring for me, bearing with me, telling me what's wrong, encouraging me, supporting me,
for simply simply, appearing in my life (:

i love you guys alot, alot.

and i will definately miss every single one of you.
bernard's nagging, guansen's ahgong-ness, wanling's sweet advice, choonyen's morning talks, yujia's spasticness, jiahui's encouragement and support, fongyee's accompany and love, kiat's lag-time-ness, janice's noisy-ness, amanda's cuteness , sweeying's concern, qinhui's lameness, kaylene's sotong-ness, shinzu and shermian's sweet smiles, luohui's 'da mang ren'-ness.

i will miss you guys. i will.

every end marks a new beginning.
let the star continue shining. not just in social, no.
we are all stars, and we shine, bring the light, the hope, everywhere we go.

THY SOCIAL SPIRIT, FOR NOW, FOR ALWAYS, FOR EVER.