so everything that i had is gone now and you must make me so empty to begin and end with. how i wish that there wasn't even a beginnig because ending in this way is simply and too much to be accepted and believed.
well no. maybe i do love that beginning. yes i do.
today's heritage day was crazy and i spent all my money :D 4A's jelly was superb but their milk tea was like 'erm' and 4I's teaeggs are so nice! :D by the time i wanted to get my 2nd egg they're already out of stock D: 3F's balloon stall is fun cos everyone was trying very hard to hit the one with qiaowen's name :D hai what a pity that we din see who's the hero who did it in the end :P &our class also very good okie our fishing stall was so crowded that alex had to keep shouting 'is it my turn already?! faster faster!' erm, not very LOUD la huh. i think everyone did a good job la though i was practically slacking through the whole thing holding fongyee's hand walking around the school till changlok had to call us 'gay' when we're actually 'les'. tsk changlok arh ur english arh!
these days dunno why im just so easily tired it's not like i haven got enough sleep or what just so so tired for no reason.
maybe there is a reason for everything and it's just that i haven't found mine. ours.
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this is just for you. i've always known that i haven't been a great friend and i've been just so insensitive and selfish, not supporting you when you needed me. and now i have to be away, they forced us apart, and we're all alone by each side, the line so clear; we're forced to. but i want to let you know that i've always trusted and believed in you. it was like this when they first chose the exco between us and it was u not me but i wasn't a little upset, because deep inside i know that u have all that u should and social is and will forever be strong and live on with pride. it's our social. ours. &girl, im placing this ours into ur hands. no im not gone. i'll never be. it's just a different stand now and im standing at the back instead of by the side, but i am, i am still here watching, and continue believing in you. what we're all afraid of is not that we distrust our ability, but whatever the uncertainty that's ahead. it's just like, the only reason that we're afraid of darkness is that we're afraid of the uncertainty that's possible to pop up, not the mere fact that it's dark. girl, be brave. i want you to be. they need you to be. i know it'll be hard and you're just so lost to proceed further, but it's because of you that i can trust, and that although i cant bear to, im not so worried. and no, memories will not disappear, they hide into the most precious part of this creation in us by god, it's called the heart.
i know you love. and i know that you know i love too. trust urself; trust ur love. &i'll forever be here.
