i know u are reading this and this is what i want to say. yes i have more passion for social more than anything else and that's something that np can never compare to but i've never forced anyone to love np and be passionate when im not. never. realise that i never told anyone off for not being passionate about np before not even shuran. for one thing you might be right and that is i dont have a right to because i myself am not so i'll never demand that of anyone. you said i have. prove it. when i critise something it's not about asking people to be passionate it's the kind of attitude that i dont like, and which is affecting the people whom i respect. yes i do respect those who are very enthusiastic and passionate about our cca because that's something that i lack of, and i admire them for what they have. &you're not one of them. when something that you or others do affects these people who are up there trying so hard to lead np, making it live on with pride, you demoralise them, i cannot stand it. you may not respect my opinions because i have no passion for np, but let me tell you something: at least i have a true passion in my heart and you dont. though it's not for np, it's true. true passion is unconditional and will never be affected by external factors. no matter what post i get in council, whether im an exco or not, whether mrslook suppresses me or not, whether im sacked or not, it has never changed, and it will never change. even you said that although im out of council, i'll still have those people whom i had. yes, that, im very sure. that's the whole reason for my passion for social. i declare it my social and noone ever takes it away from me. so u realise what's the difference? why is it that i like social so much more than np? what have they done? what have you? and i still say what i said before and there's it : you do not hate someone just because they dont have the same passion [if you ever call that a passion] or priorities as you. that's the most childish thing in the world. whatever it is, you're just making excuses for your disabilities to accept your failure and you have to drag someone down together with you. no doubt you're someone influencial but you've really, really lost it all. yes you're just so so disappointing that even this word is too shallow of a level to describe this feeling. and of course, you've awoken me with your words which are seemingly so true but are actually not, and that i will definately change. but no, not because of you. do you know how much of an insensitivity you've shown today. maybe i change because of that, maybe one day i will forgive, but no, i'll never forget. never. let me repeat: i dont have that passion for np, yes. but i never try to force it upon anyone.
