i guess it's just that i cant anymore, they cant anymore we arent anymore
hate me for feeling this way i've been the one, the contradiction who reliefs at the taking off of the burden sighs in content laughs with everyone
and today looking at the faces of them and i realise that how much, how much love that i've already put in there how much love, that's too late, too hard, too pain to withdraw
and suddenly in my laughter i felt that tear and which i hid hid because it might be the last time that im laughing with them and the laughter suddenly became so hard, just so, so hard.
hate me for doing this it's always parting that makes me treasure separation that makes me tear losing that makes me realise how much i've loved it's been like that with 2b, and now it's you, you all.
im fine im really really fine if time were to go back, i think i'll treasure every moment with you all not scolding szekiat for being bochap, qinhui for laming, guansen for nagging, bernard for suaning, choonyen for scolding, janice for hecking. everything, every and every little things. but there's not there is no going back
i dont know what's more in my life that's for me to do now it crashed down so real, so hard when i listened to you telling me what to do and what not to when im not around anymore when they need me but i cant do anything anymore when all i can do is to look at them and look, that's all take away the focus, the meaning, the central of everything
dont worry for me im fine it's my responsibility and it's my love
thankyou bernard, choonyen, weiguo for simply trusting believing advising and helping for just being there thank you
so here sits me wiping away every tear that flows from within trying, forgetting, hoping, wishing loving.
dont lose dont lose anything anymore. love on, you still can.
