apart of me wants to stay there in my small world &accept nothing ¬ expecting anyone to accept anything of me when pple come i open when pple leave i dont care not 'dont care' as in not feeling anything but as in, feel sad about it but do nothing about it i've always believed that was is yours is yours if it were to leave, it will leave no matter how hard u try to keep it
another part of me tells myself that i have to change change for everyone because the world doesnt spin around me i know i cannot be so selfish keep disappointing the world
today when i was walking in the heavy rain feeling the water drenching up every part of me suddenly i feel that it's all clear cleared
&i understood all that's happening and i have grown
what's so important can actually be not important at all if u think about it if u dont mind everything that much if u only care about what u care u can dont care about what u care too okie i know it's abit hard to understand but that's what i felt
&now the rain has stopped the sky is clear like it has never rained before sometimes life is like that it just strikes u at any moment of fortune or misfortune when u look back &when u look forward nothing is fair but nobody promised anything isnt it?
i cant see a rainbow there's not always a rainbow after the rain at least it's not seen by everyone nono im not trying to be pessimistic here im just trying to say that if u cant see things going uphills after the deepest trench it's okay because it cant get worse already isnt it?
